The Sky

Talking about the clouds, this was the sky captured just right after the earlier post. Slightly disappointed that such intimidating blanket of gray produced only a thin shower of rain. Perhaps it'll pick up volume tonight.

First attempt at merging photos here. Wasn't as easy as taught at the Adobe Alter Ego workshop on Tuesday, largely because the pictures used by the instructor were already carefully selected.

On a very different note, it's the end of the tenth week. Three more weeks to reading week. Have mixed feelings about the term coming to an end. For one, I would be happy by the last week as I have only three papers to look forward to. And certainly happier with whatever projects in store after the exams.

For another, this would signal half my journey as an undergrad. And it is rather sad to know that I would be leaving this knowledge trove that has become my third home. Well, if I am smart I may extend it to four or five years or even to a lifetime, hur hur...suddenly a lifetime doesn't sound too pleasing.

Ah, nonetheless, as Bilbo would say, the road goes ever on and on. Can I not stop to savour it? Alas, the feet never stop, for time waits for no one. Not even a hobbit.

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Got it!


Today was also the first time I have ever eaten a chicken curry puff with only a die of chicken meat as large as 5mm cube.

Am also slightly down with the flu. And discovered that if I lay my head on the desk and look out the window, with the help of some imagination it would seem as if I am 500 storeys high in the clouds, and that if I ever stick out the window and peer down I would see a sea of nothingness but white cottonish clouds. How nice...

Risk it not, ask!

It is hard to miss. Even when one hastens here and there, pacing furiously to keep up with the sprinting time, mind occupied with a hundred and one thoughts about the thousand and one deadlines, it is hard to miss. Those red bold letters. Spelling out fervor and glory from the days of yore.

Amidst the colourful booths at the bustling bazaars that occur every so often these days on campus, those red letters caught the eyes of a commander of the past. The feet remained quick, but the eyes had been drawn. The mind registered those sightly letters.

RISK.

RISK. Never have I seen stacks of boardgames so simply arranged on the floor of the Central Forum. But two or three weeks ago I have walked past them again and again. This is the perfect time to get a set. But how much will it cost? Not cheap I presume. Must be about $40. Not something I, an unemployed (or poorly self employed) undergrad with five figure loans can afford.

Saw them again today. At the corner of LT27 forum, one upon another, a tower of cavalry and brave men calling, luring. Well, I might, might, consider getting a set if it is $20. $20. What am I, hoping against hope? No RISK - or any other board games of the sort - sells for $20. That would be half of the shelf price.

Why don't you just ask. No harm asking, right? So I went to the aunty at the stall. How much is this, aunty?

"Fifteen."

Fifteen? Did she say fifteen? Or is it fifty?

"Fifteen?"

"Ya, and this one is eighteen."

"Owh... this is fifTEEN and Star Wars is eighTEEN?"

"Yes."

OK, I don't know what the usual price of boardgames is in this country, but I know some explosion akin to the shots of cannon has gone off in my chest. Didn't buy it. Still dazed (or shocked). Waiting for reality to set in before I pack some cash and revisit the sweet old aunty on Friday.

Sidenote: Just last night Terrible messaged me and said that Conquerer has been found.

This and that

What does one write about at four in the morning? Thoughts of present and past perhaps. Perhaps also, try not to give in to temptation of commenting on the just-watched US remake of Dark Water, letting loose one's imagination in the still and darkness of one's room and scare the poops out of oneself.

I met two of my old friends today (sigh, need I mention that one made us wait 75 minutes, said there's a reason for it - and that was probably that she spent the morning blogging! Don't worry, I still adore you, you-know-who-you-are). We haven't met for months I think. Yet strangely I didn't feel like it was a long while. Strange how we feel the effects of time. It was as if not many days have passed since our last outing. Strange.

Not too odd is how a certain dreadful feeling settles on one's mind as the semester break nears to an end. Feli has described it much better than I can. One returns home, be a kid again, then face the prospect of leaving these comforts behind and try to function again as an adult. One morning you wake up with your poodle licking your face, your mom around the house, the next you wake up, thinks your poodle is beside you but silence quickly settles in and you find yourself staring at four pale walls. The mind is blank at first, but realization strikes and you think of that pressing deadline, that unfinished assignment and that reading undone.

I try not to think about that. There's more pressing unfinished business. C, OS labs, OS tutorials, OS readings. Software Eng midterm on Friday. Software Eng project preparation for Sunday meeting. Those USE papers. Need to take care of these when the sun rises tomorrow. Really looking forward to checking off those one by one. Looking forward to that sigh of relief.

Then brace for more. Those Cyberarts videos. OS midterm. OS assignments.

That Video. Professionally and personally I resolve that it will be the best of our efforts.

I think, I worry too much. There's something called selective focus and I will need it now and the coming weeks.

That will be the end of my stressful stories. Selective focus in motion now.

This is another thought. I am an observer. Not in the attentive sense. But I rest on a bench at the underground subway, watch the shuttle of time dart by. Nothing much changed on the bench, but I am amazed by the people alighting from the train of time, those whom I met before they boarded the train.

Actually if I recall properly there were a number of friends whose house I frequent when I was in primary school. Those times. Girlish chatter, video/computer games, R.L. Stein, Russell Lee, Doraemon. We end up alighting at different stations. Essentially we aren't all that different. The stops differ.

What became of the little girls with flowers? They rode on the train. They grew. They are little girls with flowers no more.

The self and anti-cool

Had my first visit to an art festival yesterday! Ms Daniela our Cyberarts instructor decided that it would be enriching to have a class excursion to the M1 Fringe Festival organized by The Necessary Stage, and sponsored by, well, the telecommunications company M1 (Ms Daniela said all these details have to be taken notice). It has always been known as the Fringe Festival, I thought having a commercial organization prefixing a creative event pretty much defiles the free spirit of art.

Regardless, I felt like a 6-year-old again. Can't remember if there was actually any class excursion during my schooling days. It is a pity that I can't recall any. But I shall not digress.

The theme of the Fringe Festival this year is Art and Disability. In spite of the supposedly more advanced, more accepting and matured community of this era we still see segregation of what we consider less perfect than what we are or have. The theme, I gather, probably seeks to redefine what disability is, and puts it in a different light that reflects it in all of us. Disability is after all, in the eye and mind of the observer. The works of the artists hope to reveal the alternative views that we can all adopt in our quest to understand and redefine the notion of disability.

Right...Just realized how that ties in to Jan Rothuizen's work, erm...

Rothuizen's installation at the Waterloo Gallery was the first work that we headed to once we arrived at the Singapore Art Museum. Entitled The Self Collector, it showcased six (if I get the numbers right) probing, at the same time rather humorous pieces. With regards to the intellectual and artistic depth I must say that I still have quite a long way to go. My classmates however have been offering some very enlightening explanations.

[[ I would hate to describe an artwork with solely words. so, more on Rothuizen once I get the pics from my classmate ]]

It wasn't in the initial plan but we were told that there was a performance art at a gallery not far from where we were. So those of us who have done our FAST diagrams on Rothuizen's work (it is still after all a class field trip, can't escape the assignments!) went ahead to the Queen Gallery. The performance art is indescribable. Literally, really, because I came out not understanding a thing. Still, STILL, it was my first ever performance art and it was just captivating!

When we were in the gallery we took our places on the stools right in the middle of the room. We didn't know how the performance was going to start, at least I didn't, not until I noticed that a man in gray suit was walking around with a bunch of roses. Slowly he moved, the tap-tapping of his soles gradually reduced our chatter to silence. A woman in blood-red dress then walked in. The man tried to present the roses to the woman, she refused. He kept trying, both hastened their pace until he finally caught her hand. A pause, then she took a look at the roses and reached out for them. The man walked away. She positioned the stalks vertically, then went to a corner pulled out a shear, stood in front of us and gave a rather intimidating snip with the blades.

About then I realised that this person was the artist. Tomoko Takahashi a.k.a anti-cool. Ah I thought she was pretty cool. After deflowering a couple expensive roses (considering the price of those stalks at this time around Valentine's) she put down her shears, picked the two fallen rose buds, stood up with a blank expression walked towards me, handed me a bud, then turned and handed Noel the other one.

And then she went on and killed all the remaining roses. I'll save the details. She went out after the roses scene, and came back wit a really, really huge ladder. Started to paint black the projected faces on the wall. Did some sit ups...I mean...did a LOT of sit ups. 105 altogether to be exact. And did it right on the bench in front of us. In her red dress. And black heels. Pretty hard not to find it amusing. Already, watching woman in dress and heels on the ladder with a tin of paint and brush was unusual, but then this...105 sit ups. And it wasn't an easy feat, I suspect for her too, she did pant and stopped now and then.

I was wondering what she was trying to put across by this "torture" to herself (with my level of fitness 105 sit ups IS torture to my eyes). When she passed 100 I thought she was never going to stop and that she was going to continue until all of us left the gallery. Pretty relieved she did. But then. She went to the corner. Pulled off the black garbage bag and revealed --

A treadmill.

Yes, she jogged on the treadmill. In a dress. On heels.

Strangely I can't remember how the performance ended. She left the gallery shortly after the treadmill scene, I can't remember what transpired before then. Must have been too shaken up by the idea of running on heels and imposing all that force to the back bone.

One of my classmates suggested that the first scene of the man and woman was a metaphor of contemporary match-making services. And how unhappy it has led the lady, because she then stemmed off the roses, and her giving me the rose may have been her way of wishing me (I suppose, a representation of participants in the match-making context) luck. The blackening of the faces may have symbolized the gradual loss of identity, and the sit-ups and treadmill were all the effort and torture girls impose on themselves.

I thought the whole performance was about the environment. About shattered hopes and forgotten human race, and the acts of redemption.

Anyhow, anti-cool, I believe, wanted to etch a picture of red dress, heels and treadmill on everyone's mind. She succeeded.

She was going to talk about her art (which is called Reset Button) at 7pm the same day. Didn't stay for it. I am still curious about her own interpretation of Reset Button. Will I ever find out?

Art. I knew it was deep. But until yesterday, I have never felt its depth.

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M1 Singapore Fringe Festival

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